It’s mornings like the one I just had that I wish I had more of. Morning’s filled with inspiration and creativity and excitement. Then later, the creativity is used up, at least for the day, and I feel a bit down.

Been talking to myself forever, yeah. And how I wish I knew me better, yeah Oceanlab

On a good day, IMG 0006 2

So now, I’m feeling quite low. Emotionally low. Sigh! My emotions today are like my blood glucose (BG) this week. My BG would go high (highs in diabetes management are not a good thing) and then a few hours later go dangerously low (lows aren’t good either).

Bhavna kept telling me it was because of the pizza. I kept saying it wasn’t. She was right. Every time I’ve eaten pizza this week my BG has been on a roller coaster. Cheese fat covers high glycemic dough delaying the action of the insulin. So my BG three hours after eating begins to rise rapidly to well over 300. Then an hour later, the Novolog kicks in and my BG is headed to the floor.

On a good day, IMG 0002 2

I often wonder how much diabetes affects emotions. Do changes in blood sugar affect emotional state? I know hypoglycemia makes me short tempered. But what emotional state does hyperglycemia cause? Are the changes in emotional state caused by the change in blood glucose of “worsened” by it. Sigh!

So what does a good day with diabetes look like? Ha! Who knows?! For me it would mean that my BG at breakfast was under 100 and stayed that way all the way through lunch and dinner and finally bed time. Yeah! I wish. Some days my BG swings between 86 and 100. Those are great days.