I am publishing this late at night just before going to bed, so forgive me if it's short.
I'm having trouble focusing on work. I don’t know if it’s because of the monotony of each day or maybe I am just burnt out. I get up; I make coffee in the Chemex, I grab a yoghurt from the fridge, I check my blog feeds, and soon I am logging into the remote desktop and preparing for a meeting. This routine isn’t much different than “before” except sometimes when I worked from home I would get a cappuccino and a muffin from Rojo’s or I would have breakfast at Aunt Chubby's. On the days I worked in Manhattan, I waited until I got to Wall Street to get a cheese danish and a latte at Stone Street Coffee. Being out was an opportunity to interact with other people. It made working from home enjoyable. Now my mornings are just me eating along. No one else in my house is awake.
After work today, I walked over to woods near my home for some fresh air. Walking along the main road, I danced with the dog walkers trying to avoid them and maintain physical distancing. I gave up and just walked along the middle of the road. I was a safe distance from people, lowering my risk from disease, but I now had increased risk from cars and bicycles.
In the woods, it seems someone has started practice survival skills, building a “home” from branches and scrap. Perhaps it’s someone trying, like me, to deal with the monotony of their day.
I know I am not getting enough sleep, but I find I have no desire to go to bed and no desire to wake up the next morning. There is nothing to look forward to.
Linked to Jeff Sinon's Isolation Photo Project.Submitted as part of the 100DaysToOffload project.
Daniel Brinneman21st April 2020 at 7:20 PM
Change your pace and do something different than the rut you’re in now that seems too common. That should help combat the boredom in your mind.
Khürt Williams22nd April 2020 at 12:44 AM
The phrase means "a temporary shift or variation in a normal routine or regular pattern of activity”. What you mean by change of pace?
Daniel Brinneman22nd April 2020 at 1:46 PM
Khürt, even if I have a busy schedule, I pause when I feel my days are running together and wonder what small change or piece that I can throw into the mix to make it a different day from all other days. Maybe that’s stopping to be present in the moment as I walk the same path, talk to the same people and this time ask them how they are doing, or call a friend, or taking my camera where I usually don’t. It’s not going to something to learn but something you do in other locations but not in this area. Consider you’ve been a defined character in a movie but now you have new lines that bring you from the background to the foreground. Like showing the character always wearing the same hat every day but finally the viewer is drawn into their home and see all the variations of hats and why that person collects them and the memories tied to each.