Do I have diabetes burn out?

I just finished reading Ginger Vieira’s post “Do YOU Experience Diabetes Burnout?” and her follow-up post “Overcome Diabetes Burnout – Step #1”. After reading the post I started to wonder, “Am I burned out?” Ginger offered a number of questions to ask myself to help me find my answer.

Are you:

• Skipping insulin at breakfast?
• Not taking your oral meds when you’re supposed to?
• Not checking your blood sugar before meals?
• Eating blatantly high-carbohydrate meals?
• Not counting your carbohydrates?
• Taking your insulin randomly without thinking about the carbohydrate content?

While I never skip taking my insulin and I’m not on oral meds (I’m Type 1), I noticed that in the recent past I’ve forgotten to take my insulin before my meal; sometimes I remember a few minutes after I start eating, sometime I remember at the end of the meal.

Recently I’ve become sick and tired of the poke, test, inject routine and I think subconsciously my mind makes me forget to test my BG. Recently, I went an entire week without testing. Counting carbohydrates is a pain in the ass when you are hungry and just want to eat. For some meal nutritional information is not available - cafeteria at the mall or someone’s home.
I’ve been feeling burnt out on managing diabetes for about 6 months, and I’m expressing my burnout by checking my eating whatever the frack I want and checking my BG irregularly. I blame the medical industry - physicians and medical device makers - for making the whole thing so challenging. It’s too much work to do five times a day, every day for the rest of my life.

A part of me that asks, “Why the frack bother with all this”? I have diabetes. I have it right now. I’ll have it tomorrow and the day after that. Diabetes burn out? Yes. Burnt to the ground. I’m tired of doing this.