I was having a bad moment. My fear of COVID got the best of me.
My eldest went for a walk with a college friend, which didn’t seem like a great idea. If we are asked to social distance even from our family, why would she be out with someone outside our pandemic circle? My anger got the best of me when Bhavna later told me she had been doing it all week.
I flipped out. I screamed at my child about the meaning of physical distancing, lost my cool and ranted about her killing the whole family. Yes, I said that. It was not one of my best moments.
I was a hot mess. I needed to calm down. On the spur of the moment, I drove to the Watershed Preserve ( Administered by Stony Brook-Millstone Watershed Association, 4.8 miles of hiking trails ) and walked the trail.
I thought about what my reaction meant about what I felt about what was happening around me. I was scared and scared to admit it.
I went home, apologised, hugged my daughter and told her how I felt. Fortunately, she understood.