Double Vision

Frank’s challenge this week is fuzzy.

While I have recovered from the physical trauma of orbital decompression eye surgery, I have a new complication for my vision. I have strabismus (misaligned eyes).

At my post-surgery follow-up, the doctors performed some tests confirming my strabismus. The good news is that this is temporary. The bad news is that we need to know the meaning of "brief". Is it two months or six months? Will I do better with corrective lenses or require more surgery? We don't know. I have another follow-up with the ophthalmologists in Philadelphia in the last weeks of November. I'll know more then.

I would lie if I said I am not frustrated and feel dispirited by this news and the challenges before me.

I alternate between wearing an eye patch on each eye. Several years ago, I had cataract surgery in the left eye and laser surgery in the other eye. My left eye is used for distance vision, e.g., driving, and my right eye is used for reading and using the computer. Together, my eyes gave me a full range of view. With the misaligned eyes, this is broken.

Walking is challenging since I need both eyes to measure depth. I will not be driving. My spouse, although she has done much for me during this time, can only help so much, and I do not want to overwhelm her. She has health challenges. She will not be able to drive me to work each day or to the early morning photography workshops and photo walks I usually do at this time of year.

I am a freelance consultant. I have no vacation days and no paid time off. On Monday I will have a big request from my client. Will they allow me to work remotely until my eyesight improves? It's not a technical issue. Until my eye surgery, I worked remotely two days a week1. The client has systems and technology to support this. It's more of asking for a policy exception.

I know what I can't do. I can't drive or go on photo walks. I can work, but I need frequent breaks to rest my eyes. As I mentioned, I alternate between putting an eye patch over the left eye and then the right eye, but even with that, by the end of the day, my eyes hurt from trying to focus on the text on the screen. I have been using Siri dictation to send emails and text messages. It's not an ideal solution.

After work, I spend much time on the couch with my eyes closed. I registered for an online self-paced course but found watching the content exhausting, especially after a day of work. I cancelled all of my outdoor photography workshops.

To remain positive, I am focusing on what I can do. If/when she leaves the house to do errands, I go with my wife and photograph whatever I see. I have mainly used my iPhone 7 for this, as the Fujifilm X-T2 is too large to take on errands. If you see a man staring straight ahead while holding on tightly to his wife's arm, that is me. I'm paranoid that I'll bump into people and objects.

Frank's challenge this week is fuzzy. Frank's example image in his post is what my left eye sees now.

I have included a few photos captured using the double exposure feature of my Fujifilm X-T2. These images give some idea of what it feels like with my vision. The double exposure feature is easy to use. I select the double exposure feature on the command dial, shoot the first image, and accept the result on the LCD when the camera prompts. The camera then overlays the first image on the live viewfinder so that I can see how the double exposure will look. Pressing the shutter then captures the second image overlaid on the first.

The images are all straight-out-of-camera JPEGs.

22 September, 2019, Early autumn · FujiFilm X-T2 · XF16-55mmF2.8 R LM WR

  1. Before my arrival, the department head allowed us to work remotely one day a week. However, employees in both the Manhattan and London offices began resigning, attributing their departure to the burdensome commute. In response, management made an exception to the remote work policy. We were granted the flexibility of working remotely for two days a week. 

Author: Khürt Williams

I work in application security architecture and I live in Montgomery Township, New Jersey with my wife Bhavna. I am passionate about photography. Expect to find writing on cybersecurity, tropical aquariums, terrariums, hiking, craft breweries, and bird photography.

16 thoughts on “Double Vision”

  1. I, too, hope this temporary is the shortest time possible. I agree with frank regarding the world around you. It’s possible the even journaling about your physical and mental visions would be interesting. Yes...frustrating. Hang in there. Sending healing thoughts from Arizona. Donna

        1. Congratulations! Welcoming a new member of the family is exciting.

          The double vision has improved but not well enough to drive. After being stuck inside all week, working from home (with an eye patch), I am anxious to get outside with my cameras.

          My good friend and photographer, Ed, has offered to attend the Scott Kelby World Wide Photo Walk with me. He's driving.

          It's a sunny, yet cool day so I think it will be a great photo walk.

  2. I can imagine your anxiety because of not knowing how and when...but as I understand it, things will improve. You are strong in your determination and will surely come through a stronger man. Usually that is what happens - we get stronger with all the tests and trials. Love your take on this prompt from Frank! I believe the images show, as close as possible, how your sight works. Wishing you all the best.

  3. Best wishes for a speedy and complete recovery, Khürt! I can only imagine the frustration that you might feel and would encourage you to take this temporary state as an opportunity to develop a different vision of the world around you and possible translate this into photography. Would make for a truly interesting set of blog posts, or even a book!

    Good luck!!

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